It has been long!

Shuuu, when was the last time I have written anything in my diary. A lot has been going on and I have been meaning to write but I have failed to get to this side of things. The whole month of September has been hectic with a lot of ups as well downs which I have thoroughly enjoyed. I have come to a point in my life where I have learned to embrace both experiences. Good or bad, both equally provides me with learning, development and growth.

During the month of September 2019, I have been rejected in the most painful manner, the manner that involves race. I was not the right color to be deserving of an opportunity to deliver services. I remember the day very well and it was painful. Strange enough, when it all happened, all I could do is praise and worship God. Even thou I was in pain and feeling disappointed, my heart just wanted to rejoice. Over the years, my successes have been born out of rejection. I have been rejected and disappointed so many times in my life until I learned what to do with such sagas in my life. When rejection or disappointment happens, I know that it is time to prepare and be ready for a new big thing is on the way...

Whatever that I am today came out of being told that I could not make it, that I was not good enough. Instead of crying and having a petty party about it, I used the same energy to prove to myself that I was made for more and nothing close to what was said to me. Whose report will I believe, I shall believe the report of the Lord. I am what God says I am. Look, it is still a journey and a process, some days I win, some days I still loose but I keep trying and pushing for better days.

On the lighter side thou, this month was also awesome! I got to celebrate some successes and lived my life a little. I was invited as a guest speaker at some event where I had the opportunity to speak to students about ethics in the workplace. Being the lover of motivational speaking, I used the opportunity to change one life a day - my everyday goal. It was such an honor as I was given the opportunity to feed my soul. Every time I get on stage to do anything in front of people, I just come alive, something in me just lights up. What a privilege!

Well, the results of this is that I got to be inundated with emails requesting mentorship! I thought, oh my word, where is the time? I would like to mentor everyone but the time is tricky but let us see what happens. I think that sometimes I offer too much help to an extend where it is not so realistic in terms of my own life. Look, I am learning and will find better ways to minimize wanting to do too much for people, hehe!

The kind words people tell me about myself every other day is deep. Sometimes I wonder whether they are talking about me. I always try to almost step out of myself and look at me from outside, wow! I do all these things for the glory of God. the Bible says that we must use our talents for His work and His glory. I strive each day to make my talents and everything He has given me to ensure that I do it for God. Every job that we do, big or small has to be done properly for His glory. I am just doing my best and my part.

Dear Diary, a lot happened in this month but I am glad I could capture just some of the moments. I promise to write more going forward!!! Where there is a will, there is definitely a way...

Love Thyself, Child!!!