Living in the new normal

Dear Diary,

I have not written in like 5 months, not good because I have had a lot to say to you over the past months but seem to have had no time to sit down and write. Well, I have been waiting for a day like today where I can sit down and pin my thoughts. Life, work, etc. can wait. I just need to write something.

I actually remember the first time I heard of the COVID-19 cases in South Africa, it was a Thursday and I could not sleep for few days. Every time I closed my eyes, I will see people dying and my family being affected. So many thoughts and mostly fears went through my mind, day and night. I decided to allow myself to go through the emotions. Once that happened and was done, I was able to focus and remember my Creator. Ever since that realization and acceptance, I have been doing nothing less than accepting the new normal. I do not want life to go back to what I used to know as normal but I am looking forward to stepping into the new normal.

During the lockdown period, I have gone through a lot of experiences. I have gotten to know more about my children, my Husband, my family but most importantly, I have gotten to know more about myself. I have decided to choose to look to the positive of every situation. Although I must admit, it was really tough at times. I had to let go of some of my many plans and go back to the drawing board. I had to rearrange my life basically but I am sure many people have had the same experience. The toughest was having to accept the new reality and embrace it in order to move on. After many nights and days of stress and tears here and there and more praying, I finally made it to the acceptance line. Right now, today, I am doing well and proud of how far I have come.

I personally feel that it is of importance for me to love myself more, appreciate myself more and embrace life, no matter what. I mean, everyone's life looks great on pictures and on social media until you really open the book and start reading. I have gone through the most but I have survived it all and still surviving it all. Today, just today, I choose to appreciate myself for who I am and how I never allow anything or anyone disturb my purpose in life. Each day, I wake up and and strive to be the best version of myself and sometimes push myself too hard. I do so much because I enjoy it but mostly because I have been called to do it, my ultimate purpose in life. My prayer each day is for God to reveal my purpose in this life and to obey all HIs instructions. It is not easy but it is possible.

So just today, I want to reassure myself that Masase, you are doing a great job. I am utterly proud of you. You have come too far and still going far my girl. You are the greatest Dragon Slayer I know. Never stop doing what you have been called to do. Keep rising each and every day and just WIN. Your heart is your greatest asset as you have seen that it has done more wonders for you than anything else. Never change for anything or anyone. BRAVO, I salute you. You are a powerhouse girl. I wish I could write and appreciate you each day but today will do. I wish I could write a book about the riddles of this blog and the details of it but this will do for now.

Also, continue I hope to continue writing more, feels awesome!!!